M18, I've lived my whole life in Saudi Arabia, and it hasn't been the best experience due to the fact that I'm gay.

I'veI visited the states once before, but I was 15 and I didn't do much other than a bit of tourism and walking around. This time, I was supposed to staystayed there for a month and a half whereand I traveled all around the states. I had a couple of sexual experiences during that month, but I haven't drunkdidn't have a drink until the last couple of days, and it was amazing,. I was able to talk to people openly, not worrying about anything. I just loved drinking so much, and this new part of me that I unlocked, that I had to extend my stay. First, to an extra week, then, another extra week, then a whole month. I'veI had so much fun during that time. itIt was so great. I made so many friends during thatin the extra time, people. People I could actually relate to, not just some acquaintance from school or whatever. But anyway, as they say, " all good things must come to an end," so I had to head back home at some point.
Now, I'm in Saudi, all sad and shit, not knowing what to do. I took a gap year as to apply to universities in the states causeStates because I don't want to stay here any longer.